drawing

I recently decided to learn to draw. I've been watching YouTube videos and reading articles. I always said I couldnt draw stick figures, but I've been working on drawing for a few weeks now and I'm not that bad at it. I tell everyone that 90% of what I do is erasing/editing, but I feel my powers of observation improving. Sometimes I just fill a page with color or texture, but I'm trying to learn realistic drawing. A friend gave me a lot of her neglected art supplies and I've just taken off with it. I think I'll post more in days to come. 

life hurts

It's been a very long time since I've posted. I've tried to figure out how to start this next entry but I haven't been able to. 

Right after I decided this blog would be more personal and less business, I lost my brother. Brent was 53 years old, had been a diabetic for 50 years, had a foot amputated, had a kidney/pancreas transplant, went blind, had congestive heart failure, had to have his new pancreas removed because it started kind of rotting, and a few days before we lost him he had a stent put in behind his heart. For all that, he was upbeat, cheerful, friendly and pleasant through it all. He'd tell anyone who'd listen that he was still alive because he got baptized before his transplant. He indulged me more than I realized. It has been over a year and I still have a hard time. 

2 weeks after that I slipped and fell on my tailbone. Full weight. 

2 weeks after that my pet rat died. 

I'm now on antidepressants and in counseling. I think I've needed antidepressants for a long time, i just didn't realize it. I feel more like myself than i have in years. 

Last month, my mom went in for a heart catheterization and they found multiple blockages and ended up putting in 4 stents. She's been in cardiac therapy for a few weeks now. Friday they increased her speed on the treadmill and Sunday i saw her rubbing her chest. I insisted she go to the emergency room and she listened to me. Turns out she was having a heart attack. A mild one. She also has congestive heart failure. She's currently in the hospital under observation. I'm a little freaked out. 

I've decided not to do graphs anymore. I didn't enjoy making them. I'm focusing on selling finished objects. Of course if i need to make a graph for something to work from I'll share it. 

I think this is enough for now. Thanks for reading!